i really dunno what's wrong with me. i know that i've making her feel unhappy these few days. on the day of my learning journey. i felt strange. i travelled back into the past while the guide is telling us about the history about the places. as we travelled, i msged her and all. turn out that we din had a good time talking. we ended up nearly breaking up. seriously. i really think i suck. all i did was to make her unnhappy. i wanted her to be happy. but why am i only making her unhappy.

i asked her to lend me a tie tyd. i wanted to say thanks but somehow id didn't come out. i told her to take a bus and she shouted at me. i became scared and tried not to look at her. and it turned out that she really was angry at me. i really wanted to die.

i told her everything today. everything including the secret. i really shouldn't have told her. the way she reacted really made me feel like dying roght there on the spot what's wrong with me. why cant i bring her happiness? i really hate myself